It’s almost like the universe wanted you to find me
she probably joked because she doesn’t know how you feel. she isn’t doing it to hurt your feelings she’s doing it because to her, she’s going off how she knows you. but hey, things will work out. I promise. :3
honey, here’s the biggest thing. sexuality is so fluid and free flowing that water is jealous. someone labeling their sexuality to a single form (straight, gay, bi, etc) really only limits us to the things that people try to put things under to try and simplify something that, in all honesty, cannot be simplified. you can be “straight” and develop feelings for someone of the same gender. it isn’t abnormal. it isn’t going against your sexuality. it’s being you. you are fluid. you are not a list of easy to fit categories. you are a human being that is varied and ever changing.
as for getting over your crush, crushes come and go. they happen and then next thing you know. poof. they’re gone. you’ve moved on. sometimes it does develop into more though. i understand that she may not have the same feelings for you, and as much as it sucks to be rejected, you kind of really figure out your feelings based on how they react. you discover a person’s true self almost in how they do react if you tell them.
all I can say though, in advice, is to just take it as it is and let things flow, let your path and heart guide you to where it needs to be. cheesy as it sounds, you will always be guided to where you need to be. whether it be fate, destiny, whatever; you were pushed to where you are now, and are being pushed to where you need to be.
in the infamous and undying words of lana parrilla: you are where you need to be. just breathe.
You really are the f a i r e s t of them all, aren’t you?